I've been busy for the past couple of weeks trying to get some things going. I've been occupied with my current job search while keeping up with cleaning, my kids and the dog. I feel hopeful that good things are to come...I've redoubled my efforts and have employed some other options that I believe will yield good results. As they say, the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result. Hopefully this will prove my belief to be true...that I haven't descended into madness quite yet.
Even while being caught up in trying to improve my current situation, I am aware with what's going on out in the world. Beyond the sweltering heat here in Dallas, there is the 14 trillion lb. gorilla in the room named "Downgrade"...or my recently Tweeted tongue-in-cheek jab at our current President "Downgrayed - the newest product from Just For Men inspired by Barack Obama." Hardly a joking matter, it's something I've been unable to stop thinking about. Even in the moments when I think I forget, it lingers still like white noise.
It concerns me like many millions of Americans who like me are trying to improve their station in the midst of so much uncertainty. It seems at times daunting but it's not the first time many if not all of us have been presented with long odds or challenges. It seems rather more the rule than the exception that this is so. And while that is the case, we as Americans still have much to be thankful for. Despite the many challenges we face, we still represent the best, last hope on Planet Earth. It reminds me of another saying, "To whom much is given, much is required."
That statement places upon me a burden. I KNOW that which God has given me I must share and use for good. I am guilty of letting people and what I think people might think dictate whether or not to follow through on my end of the bargain. To my detriment, I put off working constructively to put myself in a position to share my thoughts, feelings, talents, voice. I'm actively working towards a construct of how sharing what I have to share plays out. I don't have it all figured out but I'm getting there. I have good people around me who love me and who are supporting me. I know you know full well how important that is. It has a way of steadying you like nothing else can.
I believe you feel the burden of that statement as well. Despite all of the things you and your remarkable family have had to endure, it hasn't polluted your ability to see things more clearly than any of your contemporaries. You have demonstrated that over and over again, providing an especially stark contrast to the tone deafness of President Obama and Washington political leadership across both aisles. You did it again with your last Facebook post. Your words stirred inside of me and it struck me how often that happens to me when you speak. I know there are many like me who share my sentiment.
Real leadership is more than uttering stirring words but it's having the guts to do the right thing even when it means getting flack for doing so. I can't think of anyone in recent memory who has exhibited that very trait like you have. Many in the crucible of public life have succumbed to far less. I know you have a hobbled ankle but I'd never know it if you hadn't shared it otherwise. Your strength, tenacity and focus in the midst of our great national tempest is a source of strength for many of us. It's why those of us who support you are anxious, maybe even a bit fearful that you are thinking of possibly skipping this election cycle, ceding your candidacy to another amongst the field of contenders.
I can only speak for myself in this although I'm sure I'm not alone by saying that I firmly believe not just anyone else other than President Obama "will do". This coming election isn't about an alternative but about THE alternative. And you, Ms. Palin, are THE. You are THE antithesis and THE anecdote all at the same time. I don't pretend to elevate you to an unreasonably high status...I simply see that you are uniquely equipped to lead us during a time perhaps like no other. You see clearly when others don't. The other so-called contenders simply don't stack up. All of us who aren't blinded by special interests, ivory tower theoreticals and lefty MSM bias see this for what it is.
In the days to come, you will make public a decision that will put to rest all manner of speculation and rumor. It is my sincerest desire that you come to a decision that when all voices cease, is one that you believe addresses that burden I talked about a bit earlier. I can't imagine having to decide something with so many ramifications not only for your family but for this country. I don't say this with the intention of leaning you one way or the other, as if anything I said deserved that much weight. What I do believe is that your instincts are good ones. I do believe that this decision will be made like the ones you had to make in times past - with healthy doses of prayer, reflection and counsel.
And just in case these words do reach you where you are, I'll end this letter quoting a man whose words are much weightier than mine who posted a fairly famous newspaper want-ad many years ago:
Men wanted for hazardous journey, small wages, bitter cold, long months of complete darkness, constant danger, safe return doubtful - honor and recognition in case of success.
Awaiting your decision...and ready to serve,